I've spent the last 24 hours pouring over online job classifieds. I've discovered there is nothing that truly interests me out there. I look at job descriptions and requirements and realize there are a multitude of positions I could be good at, but none of them pique my interest enough to actually "Go for It" and apply. It's only been a day since I've left my previous position. Maybe I still have that bitter taste in my mouth. Maybe I don't want to set myself up for that situation again. If I don't work for someone else, they can't tell me to take a hike.
I finally disclosed my unemployment to my wife. She was very supportive. I knew she would be. She might give me a hard time sometimes, but deep down, she knows were in this together for the duration. I've been there for her, and she's been there for me. It's almost as if we take turns. But at times, it seems she takes her turn more often than I need to.
I've been looking at articles regarding career changes and how to take a situation such as mine and find new opportunities. They also recommend a short time for processing and digesting the events which have just occurred.
So I think I will. It's Wednesday. I guess there's no huge emergency to panic and go into a funk. Technically, I'm employed until the end of the week. It's time for me to kick back and enter my pensive mood. What do I want to do? What am I really looking for in my next position? How much money do I want, or actually need, to be satisfied?
Meanwhile, I think I may start jotting down some ideas for a book. I still have that itch to dive in and start writing. I've got a lot of years of funny experiences and unusual situations that I have found myself in. Just might make for some good reading.
I bet I can squeak in 36 holes this week too. Back in 2005, the afternoon I lost a job, I shot the best round of my life. Must be the lack of pressure, like that weight was lifted off. I believe the catch phrase I'm looking for is "Not my problem anymore".
It has a nice ring to it.

Where to start? I used to spend time wondering what it would be like to be a writer. I used to think I could make a living at it. A big bottle of Crown Royal and a few packs of smokes and I could hammer out the next best seller. Meanwhile, life happened.
You've heard the quote "Life is what happens while you're making plans"? Well, it's definitely true.
20 years, 7 jobs, 3 wives, 4 daughters, and a computer age later, here I am. Beginning a journey into the world of blogs. Gotta start somewhere.
Sometimes I wonder if it's boredom or just a lack of interest that keeps me moving along, never settled for long. Perhaps I'm one of those "Grass is Greener" kind of guys. I always seem to have delusions of grandeur when embarking on a new chapter of life. But somehow, reality always sets in and I start looking at the horizon, wondering what else is out there for me.
As I seem to grow older faster, the need to find my destiny, or meaning, if you will, seems to creep into the forefront of my thoughts with alarming frequency.
Yesterday, my boss and I agreed that I would not be required to return to my position. Actually, it was his idea. I just agreed.
It felt like an extremely heavy weight had been lifted off my chest.
Once again, the universe of opportunity was handed to me. I was free to do anything I want. I was free to become anything I felt like becoming. I spent the day mulling the possibilities over. My mind raced 100 miles an hours.
Today I awoke with a renewed interest in life. My past position had sucked every ounce of enthusiasm from within me. I had reached the point of dreading the fact I had to go to work. I was physically ill at night before bed, knowing that when I got up I had to spend my day in that place.
I would like to think that I will take my time and reach a point in the future that puts me in a position and frame of mind that I have been waiting to find for a long long time.
Meanwhile, while I am making plans of what I want to do, what I want to accomplish, what I want to become, life is still happening.
Rent is ominously close. Car payments continue on schedule. There is no "Time-Out" from my commitments.
I should be good for a month or two. My wife is still here and gainfully employed, although I haven't broke the news to her yet about my employment dilemma. She knows I was miserable. And she knows why. I guess she'll go thru the usual wifely panic, and then we'll talk it out and she'll be ok. I just don't want to put a burden on her due to my dissatisfaction.
So, I'll struggle a bit to decide. Do I job hunt and try to get noticed thru thousands of current job openings? Do I try and delve into an untapped field that has caught my attention from time to time? Or do I skip shaving, play golf, watch You Tube, and hope that "Eureka Moment" happens to fall in my lap?
As I plan my next foray into the world, I just remembered,
LIFE HAPPENS